Dear March,

I truly… madly… deeply… fucking hate you.

p/s: I apologize if your name is March, I was referring to the month :D

Chasing papers

Anyone who knows me knows that I … hate rich people. Partly due to envy, and partly due to my general impression of rich people. I believe money corrupts, even though currency is something very artificial, it will never fails to corrupt the best in us. People will start to choose money over more important things, thinking money will bring them the security, the recognition, the happiness that they seek. But all too often, they are wrong.But enough about me hating rich people, recently I had a short half an hour conversation with my friend about getting our masters. The conversation was simple, but it was packed with soul-crushing information about … what else, Money.

I had to come to terms that if you want to do a decent masters, you need money, shit loads of them. For any decent masters overseas you need to at least fork out 100k. How am I gonna get that amount of money man.. I’m not some rich kid who gets to study abroad and go traveling whenever I please. My results were never really that good to get scholarships like most people I know. Loans interest rates are so high these days, and my dad is retiring soon. And frankly, the thought of going half way around the world all by myself sort of scares me now. I wonder where did all my enthusiasm and eagerness to jump on the next plane leaving for the states went. Could it have been for the past few months of working finally changed me and I have become less naive than before? Is this supposed to be the next me? The so-called ‘grown up’ that everyone expects me to be?

I never liked blogging in front of my computer because I can never keep to one bloody topic wtf. Anyway, education is freaking expensive, and I am frankly quite lost right now, being an academic underdog just seems to make things worse. I was never an academic person, sitting in a classroom and writing essays in an exam hall was never my learning style. I have always been a hands-on person, I thrive in conditions when I have to learn things hands-on. But what can I possibly do to prove that if I were to apply for a scholarship or to apply for a placement in a masters program?

Once again this post is going no where wtf, I started off wanting to rant about money now see where I am. I guess applying for masters is much harder than applying for a degree, everybody needs a degree these days to get a decent job, that’s why universities and colleges are so commercialized and information is easy to get. When it comes to masters I suppose it’s not as popular thus not as easy to get decent information anywhere, try the UKM clinical psy website and you will know what I mean. And it’s so hard to pull yourself to do some research after a long day at work when all you want to do is just crash. The lethargy is so strong nowadays I pretty much have nothing to look forward to anymore, besides the strangely beautiful sunset from the Pantai Dalam highway, seriously, it can be very breathtaking sometimes I don’t know why.

Anyway before I start talking about something completely random again (do you know Taylor Swift’s birthday is December 13? how awesome is that? wtf), if anyone feels like doing some research on psychology masters program overseas, do let me know, maybe I will feel more motivated if I have someone to do the research with me together. We can sip coffee like some douchebags at Starbucks because we like to look sophisticated and complex, using our laptops and sipping our ridiculously over-priced cup of coco like how westerners do it. Oh hey! I’m back on topic again! yeah I fucking hate rich people wtf

Here’s a picture of a Corgi, she’s here to brighten up your day wtf

A stroll at Sunway

Always been a bit fascinated about Sunway Uni’s rooftop, so finally get to take some shots with some help from Han.

Anyone who wants this scene as your make out spot, pay me a small fee and I’ll let u know where :p

Anyone care to explain where there’s a bunch of deers being chased by tigers in front of Sunway Hotel? Are Sunway students the deers and Jeffery Cheah is the tiger or something wtf.

Mooo wtf

Not the best of its kind but I like it anyways :)

“A Blog Activist’s Tale with Raja Petra Kamarudin (RPK)”

Necessary Endings

What a coincidence. Please read THIS very nice article about letting go.

“… endings are necessary. They are an essential part of life. Everything has seasons, and we have to be able to recognize that something’s time has passed and be able to move to the next season.” – Dr Henry Cloud

The season of death

Not sure if its just me but, there seems to be a lot of people passing in the past few months. First was Gerard’s father, then my grandma, then Li quin’s, then heard somebody had a miscarriage, then a temp in our office told us her father / grandfather passed away. What’s up with this few months man..

Heard from someone that the more superstitious explanation is that people start to leave after the winter solstice festival, where relatives come together for reunion n all that. Also read somewhere the more scientific explanation is that during the new years, ppl tend to binge eat or eat whatever they felt like eating because of new year celebrations. So i guess the sudden change of diet could have triggered some kind of attack perhaps..

So people, watch ur diet no matter what the occasion is, and exercise regularly! this message has been brought to you by the Ministry of Health *plays cheesy patriotic songs*

Life Etiquettes #3

Saw a Lamborghini with a ‘P’ sticker today near a college area. And I dont know which is more stupid?

Either you are too rich and you would buy your son a sports car as his first car, which is totally awesome parenting btw I’m sure he will grow up to be a fine gentlemen

Or you are a rich brat who probably don’t know squat about cars and bought your first car with your parent’s hard earned money just because u saw this car in a stupid video game u played before.

Gawd I hate rich people

Song writers

Whenever people ask me, “why you like Taylor Swift so much?”; I usually answer them plain and simply “because she’s awesome”. But today, let me elaborate a bit on the awesomeness.

I think song writers have a gift, at least the good ones do. Take Taylor for example, I find her songs extremely personal and I feel like I can relate to them. I believe most people fall in love with certain songs because it just seem to magically speak to them about what they were feeling, as if somehow, the song writer was able to understand the various emotions that the listeners are going through, and sing it like its only meant for their ears to hear. I am sure I am not the only person who feels this way about their favorite songs.

I feel a strong connection with Taylor because her songs speaks to me, like how her song Teardrops on my guitar sings about how afraid she is to let the guy that she loves know how she feels.  How sometimes when we say one thing, but we mean the total opposite of it (Other side of the door).  How we would go to the extent of lying just to keep that secret secure (I’d Lie). And especially her new album Speak Now; which is about how we didn’t say things at the right moment that we should have said, for her; she turned it into an album. My favorite song of her latest album is definitely Enchanted, how the feeling of talking or meeting the person you like is able to make you feel like you are simply Enchanted, but most of all is the part where she sings:

Please don’t be in love with someone else;

Please don’t have somebody waiting on you..

She made a quote for her second album, just one of the many reasons why I like her so much wtf

“To me, Fearless is not the absence of fear. It’s not being completely unafraid.
To me, Fearless is having fears. Fearless is having doubts. Lots of them.
To me, Fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death.” – Taylor Swift

amen to that.